Today I learned that I have been rejected for a scholarship that I was so hopeful of getting. When I got the news, as always, I felt like I was thrown in a pile of shit. I felt miserable, with low self esteem and a possible inferiority complex… for about 5 seconds.
Things like this got to me really badly a few years back, especially when I got one of the bggest rejections of my life. Khair thats a different story for another time. Now I m kinda bummed that nothing gets to me, no rejection seems new or sad, just damned boring! And I hate boring!
Ah well, now I have to look for other ways to fund my masters, cuz the bulk of my funding (read sponsorship by my dear old dad) has been reverted to other projects (Read my younger brothers undergrad tuition at LUMS). And I aint got the heart to ask him for the dough. And even though I can pretty much pay my fees by what I get from my TA thing, I wont be able to sustain myself on it as it pays lump sum at the end of the semester.
So khair, same old story, different objective now.