Of weddings and hospitals

July 28, 2010

I Ha….. Detest! DETEST!!!! Weddings and hospitals!

So here is what happened this week.

I got married on the 16th.

I got sick on the 17th, falling to gastroentritis (acute stomach ache, fever, diherea, nausea, etc etc suffice it to say it was nt pretty) .

I had my valima on the 18th….. I went straight from the hospital (where I was admitted) to the lawn, where I was sweating profusely in the traditional karachi heat.

I got sick again on the 19th, and was taken to Agha Khan on the morning of 20th, where I was admitted till the 24th.

How’s that for a shitty week! Try beating that!


July 2, 2010

Experiment #4.1 is lined up and ready to go…

I need some food now and get back to tweaking my device!


Of hypocrisy and assholes

June 15, 2010

Well this post is simple. People are hypocrites, and they are thus assholes. I would know, I m one of them.

Our lives are like a zero mean Signal. L~N(0,s). Where L is life, N is the functional symbol for a normal distribution, and s (or sigma) is the standard deviation defining this particular ‘bell’ curve. Now normally we have small ups and downs that come our way, thats noise. But every now and then there comes a huge spike, thats when something really good or really bad happens, depending on the direction of the spike.

Our principles, whether we are christians, muslims, atheists, agnostics, what have you, and therefore religion applies only to the spikes, thats when we become all pious and ethical. Such is the case for some people like me. Then there are those who apply their principles to their normal noisy times, but chuck their princples into the trashbin when there comes a spike. Now I cant decide which are better. But in reality both are hypocrites by definition.

The only people who are nt really hypocrites are people who realize this fact or dont give a rats ass i.e. assholes.I wish I was one is those. Heck maybe I am one of them.


June 11, 2010

Nostalgia is a Bitch and this certainly does nt help.

Don’t say good-bye like we ‘ll never meet again,

Leave me a lie at the Season’s end.

Argh!


Deus Ex Machina

June 10, 2010

The Latin phrase “deus ex machina” comes to English usage from Horace‘s Ars Poetica, where he instructs poets that they must never resort to a god from the machine to solve their plots. He refers to the conventions of Greek tragedy, where a crane (mekhane) was used to lower actors playing gods onto the stage. The machine referred to in the phrase could be either the crane employed in the task, a calque from the Greek “god from the machine” (“ἀπὸ μηχανῆς θεός,” apò mēkhanḗs theós), or the riser that brought a god up from a trap door. Although this phrase is somewhat diluted in transliteration as earlier in history, the phrase “god from the machine” implies the old use of mechanical manipulation, i.e. to be made with one’s hands. So if there were a more generally accurate way of translating deus ex machina into English, it would be “god from our hands” or “god that we make”, implying that the device of said god is entirely artificial or conceived by man.

-Wikipedia-

Light is a fascinating thing, usually considered a force of good, often incorrectly so. Light is reality. Even scientifically speaking light is what allows us to observe and measure…. that which is observable and measurable i.e. reality. So if light is the greatest tool of God/Allah, which is evident from that phrase “let there be light”, and “Kun” meaning happen…. or if elaborated happen spontaneously (Scientifically, the most basic spontaneous ‘event’  that can occur in nature is the emission of quanta of energy otherwise known as photons or light), then why do we expect Him to be a force of good? Cuz if he was just that, He ‘d be tipping the balance of good an evil in the direction of good, would nt he? No, He is not “good” in the literal sense of the term. He is reality and equilibrium. (Sure He does listen to our prayers and accommodate us within the wheels and cogs of the universe. Hahaha)

The god we, actually anybody who does believe in one or many or whatever, is not the real God/Allah. That god is a do-gooder romantic who has nothing better to do than to listen to us whine and be our genie so to speak. A god created by our hands, a god who is fallible and thus not a god at all. The REAL God or Allah is infallible, not by the rules of men, but by the laws of Physics. In essence He is the universe itself.

What we WANT god to do is be at our beck and call and solve all our problems just because we deem ourselves pious and what not, which is not just unjust, but preposterous. Thus the god we all believe in is the god of injustice and frankly a disaster waiting to happen. The real God/Allah is about justice, or equilibrium if you will, according to the laws of universe whatever they maybe, and does nt abide by our desires and will.

Now the god that we have built for ourselves is, I have to admit, a GREAT idea to believe in. IF only that were true. Cuz if it were, the graph of effort versus gain would be a straight vertical line at x = 0, there is a math reference for ya! Haha! Now lets look at the graph for that effort versus gain, it is a exponential graph. So you see, getting born and dying is the easiest of all. then there is the loser life style, then the marginally successful life where you get some education, get a job, get married, have kids, and somewhere down the line, die. All these are well below the knee of the curve. To really make a difference in this world, and make a somewhat lasting mark, the effort required is exponent to the gain that you want, which is pretty steep. And the definition of effort here is pretty specific. Which exactly means toiling and and working for that gain, and not that stroke of ‘creativity’ or ‘genius’. What we call creativity and genius is really just finding a shortcut for our way to what we want, a quick fix. To actually creat that magic wand rather than using it, is what separates effort from a quick fix, and there lies the difference. Ironically we all want to use that magic wand rather than creating it…. and thus all we do is settle for is something below the knee of the curve, believing in the false god that we believe in to help us. The reality or the REAL God smites us down with His light for our infidelity in REALITY and puts us back in our place.

Only those who believe in that REAL God or reality get to make the effort required for the gain above the knee of the curve, and only a smaller percentage of those get to pass that. It IS a cruelly just world the that REAL God or Allah created. All we can pray for is that we filter through those grinding wheels of His universe and come out of it unscathed by the enticing propositions of that false god that we have built for ourselves and leave the rest to Him to get us past the knee of the curve.

I am NOT making any sense to myself….. I better get some sleep.


Alhamdu’l’Illah

June 7, 2010

Alhamdu’l’Illah Alhamdu’l’Illah Alhamdu’l’Illah!!!! Right now I m ecstatic, I could shout this on top of my lungs!!!

MY ALGORITHM seems to work!!! And the sensitivity to robustness ratio seems to have found a real sweet spot! Ahhhhhh! Now all I have to do is write the code for the post-processing module and an app to test it! Masha’Allah Things seems to be on track!

Right now I feel like yapping about this…. what I did and how I did it… boast a bit if you will, but I wont, I dont want to jinx it.

Hello, Allah, protect my work from the randomness and chaos of your creation, the nature,, and give me the the good fortune and the ability to finish this in the best possible manner. Amen.

P.S: I ll be posting the videos soon. Right now I need sleep! I ve been at it for 36 hours straight and right now this seat does nt feel comfortable at all!


Integration

June 4, 2010

Integration is a bitch… Yeah The one in calculus is too, but that aint the one I m talking about.

I m talking about system integration, This marks the beginning of an end, but first I need to go past the gates of…. integration! Bloody hell… In the words of that colonel in Avatar…. “If there is a Hell you may go there for some R&R”…. Haaah! Speaking of R&R, I desperately need one… and in the coming months I sense an uphill journey to say the least.

Khair I am a metalhead so…. bring it on!!! Speaking of Metal, this is beautiful.

Who’s there knocking at my window?
The owl and the Dead Boy
This night whispers my name
All the dying children

Virgin snow beneath my feet
Painting the world in white
I tread the way
and lose myself into a tale

Come hell or high water
My search will go on
Clayborn Voyage without an end

A nightingale in a golden cage
That’s me locked inside reality’s maze
Come someone make my heavy heart light
Come undone
Bring me back to life

A nightingale in a golden cage
That’s me locked inside reality’s maze
Come someone make my heavy heart light
It all starts with a lullaby

Journey homeward bound
The sound of a dolphin calling
Tearing off the mask of man
The tower-my sole guide

This is who I am
Escapist
Paradise Seeker
Farewell, time to fly
Out of sight
Out of time
Away from all lies

A nightingale in a golden cage
That’s me locked inside reality’s maze

A nightingale in a golden cage
That’s me locked inside reality’s maze
Come someone make my heavy heart light
Come undone
Bring me back to life

A nightingale in a golden cage
That’s me locked inside reality’s maze
Come someone make my heavy heart light
It all starts with a lullaby

A nightingale in a golden cage
That’s me locked inside reality’s maze
Come someone make my heavy heart light
Come undone
Bring me back to life

A nightingale…
In a Golden Cage…